Weird Dream

I had the weirdest dream that I was helping a friend to sell his house. I was with a real estate agent and went in to his house. I then opened the door to his room and woke him up. I said time to wake up. He said what the hell are you doing here? You shouldn't be here! Are you stalking me? I replied that someone was here to see his house because I was just helping him to sell it. I then left the room and the real estate agent started apologizing saying that she thought I had had permission to let her in. He then started freaking out that he had another stalker and couldn't go through that again and was going to get a restraining order on me. Then I left because I was embarrassed that I was being accused of being a stalker when I wasn't. My mom was standing outside the door waiting for me. Then I remembered I had left something inside but had to ask the real estate agent to get it for me because she was standing at the door and she didn't want to let me in. I then drove off and woke up thinking that the dream left me feeling all creepy and well... like an accused stalker. If dreams are a sign I think this sign points to never contacting this friend again. Or maybe my subconscious is telling me I feel like a stalker because I'm the one trying to pursue the friendship when he isn't making an effort. Maybe that's a sign I should just give it up.

100 Things Before You Die

Ever have to do that assignment 100 things you want to do before you die? It's fine for the first 25 and then you just start repeating and making up shit. Like travel... name 25 individual countries you want to visit and there is a quarter of your list. Really I think that list should be really exciting things and not mundane every day activities like well... reading books and stuff. Unless you are going to read 100 books in a year or something like that.  Anyway I don't have an exciting list so I really don't want to write it but hey here it goes.
1. Learn to play guitar.
2. Beat expert level on guitar hero.
3. Travel to Mexico.
4. Travel to Australia.
5. Have a baby.
6. Get a university degree.
7. Buy a house.
8. Own a business.
9. Learn how to change my own oil, tires and charge a battery.
10. Learn to enjoy a clean house.
11. Get a tattoo that I will enjoy for the rest of my life.
12. Do my own taxes. I learned how to do my own taxes in college but I have never done them without the help and support of H & R Block. Never.
13. Learn to forgive people. Once I hate you... I hate you for life.
14. Own something white without destroying it in the first week.
15. Ask a guy out.
16. Dye my hair pink.
17. Stop avoiding loving people just because I might get hurt.
18. Accept my body which includes a flat butt and very large boobs.
19. Be Delicious.... that's my perfume but I thinks its a great concept.
20. Become a volunteer of some sort.
21. Start going to church of some kind.
22. Read War and Peace
23. Eat fish eggs - I mean caviar.
24. Fall in love.... not lust.
25. Get over my fear of spiders.
I wrote my original list 7 years ago in college and only 2 of these things appear on it. Travel to Mexico and travel to Australia. I guess we grow and learn and change and do some of the things that appeared on the list 7 years ago. I didn't really do any of the stuff but my ambitions have changed.

Great Green Grasshopper

I was feeling kind of low today
So all my thoughts turned to you and the Great Green Grasshopper
Do you remember when we met
It was a cloudy July day
We talked about cars and books
We went down to the river and found the Great Green Grasshopper
He told us what he knew about life and various things
Never burn plastic - the smell makes you nauseous
Always apologize when you make mistakes
Tell people you love them
After awhile we left
You said you wold phone sometime
So whenever I think of you and where you got to I just go see the Great Green Grasshopper
and think of that day long ago when I realized I would be alright without you

The mind of a stalker

What would I do... for you, to get close to you
I would hang around when I'm not wanted
It's alright because I love you
I would eavesdrop to hear what you say
It's alright because I love you
I would plan my schedule just to see you
I would hang out places where you would be
Just to see your face
It's alright because I love you
I would take up your hobbies - watch the same shows just to have common ground
You love green? So do I... now anyways
It doesn't make me look that hot - blue is really my thing
But it's alright because I love you
I would hang around even after you got a girl
Hoping You will see what a tramp she is
Tell you she's not good enough
Hope you realize soon what a wonderful person I am
I confess I love you
You don't feel the same
It's alright because I love you
The only place I can have you is through death
It's alright because I love you